It’s been so long since I posted to my blog. Last year I made the hard decision to leave my marriage of 15 years. After much support and consideration, I opted to leave a toxic situation and raise my children alone.
Everybody has issues, but nobody should commit to a serious relationship without dealing with their existing problems. A friend once told me “Don’t start a new book until you finish the one you’re reading”.
Unfortunately, the wounds from my ex’s prior relationship were never healed; the addictions unsatisfied. They festered into jealousy, control, and lies, which ultimately destroyed the trust – the foundation of our union. He has since returned to his first book to complete it.
He’s not a bad person. I will always love him for his numerous good qualities. He inspired and supported me in becoming a Nutritional Therapist. And he helped make our beautiful children.
Our children are brave, and though they should be protected from the complexities of the adult world, they have endured much pain, and are wise beyond their years. They stood by their parents faithfully, without judgement, throughout this divorce. They inspire me to be brave and strong on my own.
I choose to take responsibility for my part in the failed marriage, so I don’t repeat the mistakes of my past. I am learning about myself, so that I can make me the best version of My Self.
May this blog help me heal. May I spend my time wisely sharing wisdoms instead of despairing in sorrow. May I inspire others, so they inspire me to do what love.
May we all have peace, love, joy, and happiness. May we be kind because everyone is fighting a hard battle.
And so, I must close my book – unfinished……and start writing a new one.